just put the blogger app on my phone in the hopes that will help me to update more.
T has been home for just a month tomorrow and it's been great. we have been working on the house. we finished the basement in the spring and I was pregnant so couldn't move anything into the new space. this project has sparked 87 more, as home improvements tend to do, and now we're changing every room. we're even taking down the crib and moving into the nursery, folks. more to come on this.
im still not ready to write much for b&t. looked at their perfect profiles on ultrasound yesterday for the first time in 6 months and it was excruciating. miss them so.
work has been my sanctuary for the past month, im always busy enough to turn my brain off when im there which is a good thing for me. sadly a coworker and his wife lost their twins this week. i feel terrible for them and at the same time feel like a bad omen. i know im being irrational by saying that but that's how it feels. i could not be more disgusted at the level of unfairness in the world. i don't want anyone else to know this anguish. it's all just too much. we surrender.
tomorrow will be thanksgiving and if you celebrate I hope your day is full of warmth and laughter. be thankful for each sweet moment, live in them. sometimes they're all we get.
14 comments:
Six months already? Where does the time go.
My heart still aches for you. I don't understand how this life can be so very, very unfair.
Thinking of you and T, and remembering your four beautiful children xxxx
I've always found that time passing seems to still surprise me. Sometimes it used to feel like everything was moving slowly - and then suddenly...life just continued.
Wishing you strength through the holidays.
You are not a bad omen, you are proof of endurance and grace in the face of a tragedy, actually several tragedies. Your coworker will at some point want to talk to you to get tips on how to survive the loss, and you will teach them how to go through life after the loss. Because you have progressed a lot in your grief, I am sure, and I can see it in your writing. Maybe that is why you had the ability to look at the ultrasound pictures after all this time.
Wishing you and your sweet heart some warmth and peace on this day today.
thank you to have you in my life my sweet friend.
This world is grossly unfair :( sending you ((hugs))
Oh those perfect little profiles. Oh my dear, I'm just so deeply sorry. Your sweet b&t, I do so wish it had gone differently for your family. I still can't quite believe it.
I'm glad that work is a sanctuary for you and that you can focus on being busy and switch your thoughts off for a while.
You aren't a bad omen, I can't say it better than Mrs H already has. I'm very saddened to hear for the loss of your coworker's twins. I just wish that nobody had to go through this experience.
I think of you and T, your girls and your boy, so very often xo
I miss hearing from you so thanks for updating. I think about you and t and your four beautiful children often. I hope it gets and stays easier for you. Only good things from here on out.
Such a treat to hear from you this early morning...as always I think of you and T often. Happy Belated Thanksgiving to you.
Sending love and light to you and to your coworker.. I wish it was so different for all of us.
So glad to hear from you. And glad you're finding respite in home improvement projects. I'm very familiar with that mode of distraction. Sending you love and light in the coming weeks especially.
Glad you're enjoying your husband being home and that work is helping. So sorry for your coworker.
I'm 20 weeks pregnant this week and have been thinking about you and your children a lot...
Sending you peace and love...
always nice to hear from you. hope you and t are enjoying being together. thinking of you as always! hugs
*hugs* to you. Thank you for the sweet comment. Always thinking of you. <3
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