secrets

i have to give a big shout out to erika at life with endometriosis and pcos. she was my secret pal for the month of march and she gave me a ton of support and a really beautiful gift at the end!!

erika gave me a gift certificate to lindsey (from the r house)'s etsy shop. aaaand to make things even more awesome, i got to create a custom order.

this is the necklace that inspired me but i 'ordered' it with the beads from this necklace (a design inspired by another BLM who lost her daughter at 20 weeks :(


but i asked lindsey to stamp the words 

joy 

grace 

love

i wasn't in love with the idea of using the girls' first names, but by using their middle names it can be a memento without requiring explanation to the outside world. i don't dread the question "are those your daughter's names?" but i'd rather avoid it if possible. this way the meaning can be my little secret (and all of the internet's i guess :). i think this will be a gorgeous remembrance of them as well as a reminder to me about how i choose to live, for myself and in their honor. thank you so very much erika<3

ill make sure to post a pic when it comes in the mail 

oh and be sure to check out patrish's blog, i was her secret pal!

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in other news, i've been sick all week with a weird virus. it started out in my nose and the next day i felt like i was going to die, kind of the way you feel before a chest cold settles all the way into your lungs. well, the coughing never came and whatever it was turned into a stomach flu with body aches and pains and now it's back up in my nose. the weirdest part was it would go away for a few hours each day and i would feel better, then it would come back. so strange. T and i slept most of the day yesterday and today was rough at work. hoping that being in bed already tonight (8 pm) will help me feel a lil better tomorrow.

im looking to take a page out of lukey's book

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i was at lunch with my nana this weekend and i got this picture from T:

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with the caption "there is a rainbow in our living room" 

isn't it beautiful?

(just go ahead and disregard the 'christmas tree' and the tv wires and yes, it is so beautiful)

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I ALMOST FORGOT i am sending back my spit sample for the endometriosis study tomorrow. it wasn't just a swab, i had to spit in a test tube for a few minutes and then twist on a reagent and a new top. i felt very scientific!
PLEASE sign up for it if you have been diagnosed with endo. it took five minutes of my time and has the possibility to help innumerable women.


thanks