worried

so last week i ovulated. 
yes this is a big deal to me. this is a process that i am highly in favor of, and not for the reasons you might think.
even though i know the eggs dont get to where they need to be, im still pleased with my little lefty. she's proof that from time to time, my body remembers that it's supposed to function in a certain way, that it is not always a complete FAIL.
                                  
ever since we lost righty, lefty has really been picking up the slack. she produces almost every month. she is a little large, due to her busy schedule what with picking up all those extra hours, but on the whole, a pretty impressive little organ.
keep it up lefty! mama's proud of you! 
 
my beloved lefty is the only thing i really have going for me in this battle. the uterus who allowed implantation but gave up halfway through doesn't get any credit. she and i are not even on speaking terms yet. i'll wait and see what the report says, (still not here ugh!) but even if her name is cleared, i can't guarantee i'll ever feel the same way towards her again. us scorpios hold mad grudges.

 but back to last week. what i experienced wasn't just any ovulation, it felt like a volcano exploded in there. the biggest ovulation ive ever felt. so naturally i was all 
 GO LEFTY! ATTA GIRL! PUSH THAT EGGY OUT!  
...only to be lost in the deep dark chasm of the cul de sac, never to be heard from again-gain-gain. ok so this excitement, as all other aspects of this minefield called IF, eventually turns into frustration and feelings of inadequacy. boo.

but that's not where im heading. see, ever since the ovulation that rocked my world, i've been having pain in lefty. it basically feels like i've continued to ovulate all week. its a twingy, pangy sort of semi-ouch? very strange. im hoping it's just a cyst that will resolve itself over time. from what i've read that seems the most likely possibility.


here's the thing though. it could be something much much worse. at the same time i can accept that its probably not a big deal, i am so acutely petrified. 
i know all about my arch nemesis and her crafty ways. she could have swept in silently and lefty could be fighting a battle and declining as i type! i could lose her, and along with her, my last shred of normalcy. and that, my friends, would suck. 
suck suck sucky suck.


did i mention that my health insurance kicks in on march 1st? guess what day i go back to work where i'll be commuting an hour each way for three months? march 1. 
13 weeks of training with no days off.
so how in the world am i going to get to a doctor and get an ultrasound? i really really don't want to go back to my old obgyn, and even if i did, i don't think i'd make it in time for the last appointment of the day. so do i go to a new obgyn/RE up there and say hey, i need an ultrasound today? if i explain my history and what i'm feeling that should work, right?


any words of wisdom or ovary troubleshooting you can share would be so helpful. thanks in advance.