today is three months since i gave birth to twins.
there are no diapers, no tiny outfits and there is no breastfeeding or crying.
okay there is crying, but none of that cute baby wah wah wah stuff. i have perfected the ugly cry. im beginning to resent all we went through to get pregnant and those five months i carried the girls. it seems as if it were all for nothing. sometimes it feels like it was so worth it, and other times i feel like i do right now, like it was a big damn joke and waste of my time.
so, why? why me and my husband and our families?
this sucks
2 comments:
Thanks for stopping by my blog.
I am so so sorry for your loss. It's awful and horrible and the world just makes no sense sometimes.
And believe me, I'd keep trying if we had unlimited funds. Even on my worst days I think I could put myself through a sixth IVF.
I can think of very few things that suck more, and I don't think that knowing the "why" would make it any less sucky. I am so, so sorry for your loss.
(Here from A Little Pregnant. I am the mom of 2 internationally adopted children, never able to conceive after 5 years of trying.)
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